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~ * Rest in Peace, my little brother Jesse * ~
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... Ello.


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You two are the best friends a girl like me could ever have. You two have stuck with me through the worst times of my life, and keep me centered. I don't know where I would be without you two... thank you.


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Hang in there Lindsey!!

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These guys are my comedy idols. I loved them as a kid, and I still do. <3

I'm gonna roll on here, now.


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My memory is the worst, so dont be afraid to remind me of something if I forgot. ;w;

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If you played the game, then you will understand my frustration with the stupid fandom. -.-
Guys, don't call yourself a FF7 fan, unless you played the actual game all the way.

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Godzilla 2014 is my Lizard Husbando >u<
...he's a cutie butt.. shaddup.. :I

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Hey guys.

So, as you may (or may not) have seen, I stopped posting on here and seemed to vanish. And it was not just here; I have been off the computer for a few weeks now. Only things I have been doing is playing on the WiiU, watching youtube and netflix on the WiiU, and been relooking at my life. I also am currently back in college for Chemical Dependency Counseling. 

So you'd think things were going okay, right? No. No it isn't. In truth, I realized that I had delved into my escapism for so long, that I have not been able to look at myself in the way I need to. The truth of it all is, I have been very VERY unhappy for many years. My many "friends" I made, are nothing more than acquaintances behind a screen. Except for a select few, none of them truly care about me. None of them really want to see me, or wonder how I am doing. I want to learn so much about other people and what makes them happy, but I realized something.

When was the last time someone thought of ME? When was the last time someone thought, "I really want to see Sarah." or "I am so happy to be around you, Sarah." Hell, even a simple, "Oh! Sarah would love this!"

It seems like a very selfish way of thinking, but in all reality it really hurts when I realize this just about never happens to me.

I want to see my friends and family happy, and I am willing to do what it takes. Even if I screw up, or if I fail at doing so, I still want to hear their laughs. Their laughing fills me with joy, even if I have to make myself look stupid to make them laugh. However, it really hurts to realize that certain people I came to care about only want something from me, and dont genuinely care about me as an individual. People only talk to me when they want to roleplay with me, or if they want something from me. It hurts to realize aside from a very few select individuals, no one really thinks of me. 

I am easily forgotten; a faceless figure in the back of someones mind who is only useful when needed. I have been the one to listen to other people's problems, I have been the one to give advice, I have been the one to put my heart out there for others. And yet, I am always the one left behind and forgotten. 

And that really.. REALLY sucks.

Needless to say my inspiration, my creativity, and my self esteem have taken a huge blow from seeing this. To realize I am more alone than I thought, kills me. I have been thinking of Jesse again, and how I failed him as a sister because of my escapism. I have stopped myself on this, but I truly wished to die for a while. Those thoughts have stopped, but the pain still remains.

So, i'm sorry if you are new here or have been waiting for some new MMD or whatever, but I still need some time. I'm sorry. 
  • Mood: Hopeless

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BLOODYALICE22 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2015  Student Artist
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Sezfox Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015
Thank you, I did C:
longestdistance Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday ^^
Sezfox Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015
Thank you ;u;
longestdistance Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
How was your day? C:
Sezfox Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015
It was very nice. =w=
Littleelliott Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
May I feature you? :dummy:
Sezfox Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2015
Sure! ;u;
fenifire Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015   Traditional Artist
thank you so much for your favourite on Fantasy Universe :hug:
I'm so pleased you like this experiment :aww:
Sezfox Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015
No problem! It was a very lovely piece. Keep it up! <3
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